Zheng Rui's mother and father greet her as she walks down a lane towards her
home after a long day at work.
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The parents of Zheng Rui, Zheng
Yuguang (left) and Yang Shuyin, who were killed when American Airlines
Flight 77 crashed on September 11, 2001. [China
Daily]
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"They used to stand in front of
my building, smiling and waving at me," said Zheng, a researcher at the cancer
centre of Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore, Maryland.
That's the picture Zheng has had in her mind for the past five years. And
every time she sees it, the agony returns.
Zheng's parents, Zheng Yuguang, 65, and his wife Yang Shuyin, 62, were on
board American Airlines Flight 77 to Los Angeles on September 11, 2001. That was
the plane that crashed into the Pentagon.
Five years on, the memory remains distressing for Zheng, who refused to
recall the details of that day during a telephone interview with China Daily.
"It was just too much sorrow to begin with," she said. "I've tried hard not to
think about it. So do people around me.
"The accident had such a huge impact that it changed my life and my attitudes
towards life forever."
Asked how it affected her decisions in daily life, she said: "I can't say
exactly how. Maybe in 10 years, I'll be able to sit down and make a list. But
not now."
The turning point of Zheng Rui's life came in 1999 when she went to the
United States from Beijing to earn a post-doctoral degree from Johns Hopkins.
Before long, she invited her parents, who had both retired in Beijing, to
visit her and stay for almost a year.
Zheng Yuguang, a former chemist, and his wife, a retired paediatrician, were
married for 35 years. They also raised a son, Yang Shidong, who works at Fujitsu
electronics in Nagano, Japan.
The memories of their visit to the US are still sweet and joyful.
"Unlike Western parents, my parents didn't say 'I love you,' but their love
was reflected in their everyday lives," Zheng said.
"I still miss their witty jokes and my mum's cooking."
Her parents enjoyed their time in the United States. Zheng Rui and her
husband, Wan Li, took them travelling, hiking and swimming in Maine.
During their stay, the elderly couple reached out to the local community,
revealing their affection and passion for life, Zheng said.
"It was amazing that they made some good friends here, although their English
was very limited," she wrote in an online obituary.
"Although they were over 60, they were still enthusiastic about learning
English. When a word came up, they would immediately turn to the dictionary or
ask me."
Before boarding Flight 77, Zheng Yuguang and Yang Shuyin told their daughter,
who saw them off at Dulles Airport, how much they had enjoyed the year with her
and promised to visit again in a couple of years.
Then they hugged and kissed her and disappeared into the airport.
When the news of the 9/11 attacks reached China, their Chinese relatives
could not believe it.
"It was surreal," said Chen Wei, Zheng Rui's cousin in Changzhou of East
China's Jiangsu Province, of their first reaction. "We never would have thought
that the two of them were on the plane. There was more chance of winning the
lottery than of being attacked by terrorists."
But when the deaths were confirmed during a call from Zheng Rui, relatives in
Changzhou were shocked and silenced.
On the phone, Zheng Rui cried and couldn't continue the conversation, Chen
recalled.
For Yang Shuzhen, the sudden death of her beloved younger sister was
unbearable.
Chen said: "My mother collapsed and had pains in her heart after hearing the
news."
Chen attended the funeral, held in Washington, DC, on behalf of the family.
All procedures for the trip were given the green light quickly and completed in
only three days.
Chen was impressed by how the US Government took care of them.
"Everything was well-arranged," said Chen, 45. The US Government bought her a
first-class ticket.
A guide and an interpreter accompanied her throughout the five-day trip. At
the memorial service at the Pentagon, Chen joined other family members,
gathering for the first time after many years of separation, to share their
grief with relatives and friends.
"There was a whole floor in a building in Washington, displaying pictures of
the deceased," Chen recalled.
At the memorial site, people talked and offered condolences, some without
knowing each other's names.
"I met people of many different colours," Chen said. "The tragedy made
everyone into one big family."
At the Pentagon, Zheng Rui and her family called out the couple's names in
hope that her parents' spirits would hear.
Zheng took some earth from the Pentagon and later buried it at a cemetery in
Beijing.
"She want them to rest in peace at home," Chen said.
Zheng Rui can't share in that peace because of a sense of guilt that has
haunted her, Chen said.
Zheng said she sometimes asks herself: "What if they hadn't come to visit me?
Would they still be alive and living a happy retirement in China?"
Most of all, the pain of not being able to see her parents never ends. "It
just exists at different stages," she said.
"It is not an ordinary wound. A knife wound will heal one day," Zheng said.
"But this wound will never heal, and the grief will follow me for the rest of my
life."
Today, a 30-minute event in Washington organized by the US Congress will
memorialize the foreign victims of the 9/11 attacks. A third Chinese person,
Michael Gu, 34, of Shanghai, also died, at the World Trade Centre in New York.
His widow, Jean Liu, declined to be interviewed.
Zheng was invited to be a keynote speaker and will also read the names of the
countries where the foreign victims came from.
She said: "It is an opportunity for me to let more people know my parents,
who were loved by their families and friends."
(China Daily 09/11/2006 page1)
