alone (China)

I am 23 years old and just graduated from college. Ever since I was in college, my mother has been constantly nagging me about finding a guy and she had even set up two blind dates for me, which I am not fond of. I understand what my mother is saying and how when I get older, it gets difficult to find a guy and having babies will be difficult too. However, when my mother mentions boys, I get so annoyed because I feel as if she is pressuring me to get married. I know time is ticking, but I still want to go to grad school. When my mother sets up blind dates for me, I feel as if I am not worthy enough to find my own. I do end up having arguments with my mother over this and she always mentions my weight and how I should dress and what I should say when it comes to guys. Love cannot be rushed or forced, but mothers will never understand that.